Welcome

Hello everyone.  My name is Jessica and I am Corbin's mommy.  Corbin Scott was born on October 28, 2011.  He was 5 weeks and 1 day early due to PTL.  We spent 11 days in the NICU and finally got to bring him home on November 8, 2011.  We were overjoyed to be parents even though my husband and I never thought we wanted to be.  On December 3, 2011 our world shattered as we found him in his crib not breathing.  He was 5 weeks and 1 day old.  The autopsy revealed he had bronchitis, bronchiolitis and trachitis.  We are obviously devistated and miss him every second of everyday as we attempt to adjust to the new "normal."  I write often about my thoughts and feelings and till now have kept those writitngs to myself.  I've decided to share some with all of you.  I've spent much time writing the entire story of our journey beginning with the day we found out we were expecting.  It's not nearly complete at this time but I'm hoping some day to complete it and hope to be able to share it with the world in some fashion.  In the meantime, I plan on posting often about my struggles, hopes and journey as my life goes on somehow.  There is no way to explain to anyone who hasn't been in our position, to explain how we feel but I hope this blog will offer some insight into my daily struggles as I learn life anew.